Wierdest dream yet, a coupla nites ago. Still can't make sense of it. It doesn't really have a beginning or end.
For a start I'm a boy [Go on. Laff
Get it out of your system now
] I don't look anything like a do. I'm quite olive skinned, dark hair and eyes, and *hawt* as Hell. All the girls fancy me, but I'm not a chaser, I'm quite laidback and wealthy {that bit made me laff!
}, Even catching sight of myself in the mirror I could sh*g myself stupid.
For some bizarre reason, I've taken up with Agnes (who lives quite near) and we've been going steady for about six months. I'm getting frustrated though because she won't commit to a shag. More importantly I know about her crush on Elin. Either someone has whispered to me or I've worked it out. All I want Agnes to do is tell me about it in her own time. I keep dropping hints but she won't say anything. I am determined NOT to ask her direct. If she just says she has a crush thats fine with me and she should know I'm sensitive enough not to go apeshit about it. If she wants to DO something about it, that's different. In that case I'll suggest we stop seeing one another for a bit while she works it out. What I'm not prepared to accept is the humiliation of her breaking off and going off with Elin while the rest of the school laff behind my back about how she left me because I was so dull she preferred going out with a girl.
Agnes keeps bawling her eyes out , holed up in her room with the door locked. Papa Olof is nice and keeps calling me to come round to see if I can cheer her up. Mama Karin is a biatch though and is always nasty to me and says things like ''what did you do to upset her'' and ''she's not even sixteen yet you know'' yeh like the chance would be a fine thing. I swear if she keeps on at me I'll spill the beans and give her something to think about.
I know the worst thing I could do is go after Elin. Elin pretends she is not interested in me, but someone else has told me that she is desperate to go out with me. I fancy Elin, but we just verbally spar when we meet, and I pretend I don't fancy her. I know that the worst case scenario is that I get it together with Elin, because this will double- whammy Agnes and push her over the edge. If you see what I mean
Worst thing that could happen is that your boyfriend goes off and gets it together with a girl you fancy the pants off.
In an odd bit of crossover, Oskar (out of LTROI) is a kind of ''clingy'' friend of mine. He keeps badmouthing Agnes, and to complicate matters, seems to have developed a crush on me. Maybe I can get him to go out with Agnes?
My mind boggles at the complexity of trying to arrange a foursome for all involved in which we all emerge with some shred of dignity intact.
I wake up in a cold sweat. The End.