Sweet, snaps; the right stuff.
*
Eli and Oskar were still in Karlstadt; they had found an empty house, it was two nights after their pact, and they were all over the papers, radio and TV. Nonetheless, they still had to go out and eat; Oskar was feeling the first real pangs of the hunger now, and Eli was, with good reason, afraid he might lose his head. They waited on a lonely lane, at a deserted bus stop; and finally, a young man came slouching by.
*
Stefan was sick of it all, sick to death of it all; his dead-end job, his so-called friends, [well, except for Erik, and Juno maybe], his parents' constant quarreling, no chance of getting his own place - and now Carolyn had dumped him, for his next-to-best mate! It was intolerable. He was 17, but he felt 170. The white powder they had all had a dab of was not going well with all that beer, it was the middle of the night, he had stormed out of the party and left his lift behind, and he was miles from home.
Also, not that he gave a damn, he was not dressed for this cold, in his skinny jeans and thin hoodie.
I don't care, he thought miserably,
they say it doesn't hurt...or not when you're actually going, anyway...he blew on his chilblained fingers, but the cold immediately turned the moisture into ice.
Damn. A bus stop, two kids sitting there.
*
The young man spoke to them, stopped; he said, "What are you two doing out here, at this time? You want to freeze to death?" They also were wearing thin clothes, and seemed unbothered by the cold, though both, he now fuzzily registered, were very white indeed, and also very thin.
"We're looking for someone", said Eli politely, holding Oskar's hand.
"Who?", Stefan heard himself say, and the little black-haired girl looked at him now directly for the first time, saying, as the blood drained from his head, and he swayed, some part of him falling into her bottomless eyes,
"Someone who wants to die. Someone who's just really, really sick of it all, has had enough, and wants to die."
Her voice was musical, but also strangely deep; it had a calming, soothing quality, there was something..."What?", he said, "
What did you say?"
The blond boy said, "Well, do you or don't you?", a little impatiently; his eyes were nearly as huge and dark as the girl's, but there was something wilder, more volatile, in them, Stefan thought. He backed away slowly. Blackeberg. The Angel of Death. Oskar Eriksson. It couldn't be, not here.
The kids were sitting up, purposefully, as he backed away, so he stopped, and said, "I thought I did, but...no. I was wrong. I really, really want to live, you know, do something with my life. And I can't do that, if I'm...in bits. Can I?"
"It doesn't have to be like that", said the boy.
"What would you like to do, exactly?", said the girl softly, as if she had known him for years; and as he forced his gaze up from the floor, to meet their detached but curious stares, he thought briefly,
she could tell you to do anything, and you'd probably do it. They're so beautiful, so terrible. If he lived, he had to try to draw this, blue-black ink and wash on stark white...
"Yes, you probably would", said the boy aloud, with a sudden grin, and the girl, also smiling now, said,
"Stefan. You are luckier than you ever thought you could possibly be. Go home; walk quickly, to keep warm. Be glad."
So he did, quickly, and he was; but later he often wished, more than anything, that he had remembered to thank them.
"To learn who rules over you, simply find out who you are not allowed to criticize" - Voltaire