by Rebecka Fan » Sat Jul 03, 2010 4:25 am
Today the Psychologist and I went through my stuff (after talk about my reasons for hoarding) and I never felt so terrified in my life! She held up a piece of paper that had a note that I'd written 5 years ago, that to be honest, I don't need anymore. She asked me "how would it feel if this paper was thrown out?". I thought about it and as I did, she slowly placed the paper into the trash bag, well, almost getting it in, before I completely had a panic attack. Just over a piece of 5 year old paper. I knew I had to get through it. She asked me "on a scale of 1 to 10, 1 being the most calm and 10 being panicked and terrified, give her a number of how it made me feel to have the paper thrown away". I told her it was a 9. Eventually I was able to throw it away and I came down to a 1. Now I won't be a 1 all the time, not for a long time. At least I'm showing progress, she said. It will be a difficult road for me, but I believe with help from the Pyschologist, family and friends by my side and place here and other great places online with nice people, I feel I can get through this.
*Kyle*
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