uh! 2.15 in the morning here. woke after an Elin dream, can't get back to sleep. it was very confusing
but basiclly Elin was new at my school in my year and form group and I couldnt believe my luck that I had been appointed to show her around the classes and stuff. But I was making a real hash of it. It was lunchtime and We ran into an old flame of mine called Wendy. she was annoyed becasue I'd had a one-off with another girl Liz who was now been put into her form group. I was telling her to STFU bigtime
, Elin didnt seem to mind and was smiling
at me getting annoyed with wendy.
Anyway all this made us late for lunch. I went with Elin to the canteen but they were closing.
all that was left was some mouldy bacon. The kitchen superviser said she could make some bacon butties. i said no thanks and Elin said she wasnt hungry either, and I was concerned that Elin should get something to eat. THe superviser poured us out some brown liquid in plastic beakers but it was cold. I couldnt tell if it was tea or coffee. She said it was choclate so I put it into a microwave. I was geting flustered and Elin told me to calm down. I said I needed a cigareete but I'd run out. Elin siad she had one left. I said I cant take that. she said its ok we'll share. So we found a staircase and passed the cig between us and drank the chcoclate. I rmemeber I was getting slaiva in my mouth and trying not to make the filter too damp. Elin was wearing lipstick and some of it passed onto me form the cig and I smoothed it in and we both laughed.
WE both took off cos I had to find the Head of Maths. He was with his own form group. He is normally strict but was being laidback with them and I didnt like the way the boys were looking and pointing and calling out to Elin
. I said to Elin im so stupid Im in the bottom set for maths. The teacher will set you a written test to sort out whihc set you go in. Elin said she would fake the test really bad so she could stay in my set. I was worried for Elin but glad she would wnat to be in my crappy set for maths cos I dont like anyone there. Th teeacher was taking the piss out of me cos I couldnt remember the timetable and said ''I bet you dont even know what day of the week it is!" He was right my mind had gone blank.
He said we should go to registration and get it sorted out later.
I was near to tears
cos I was lettng Elin down badly and thought my form tutor would take her away from me and let someone intelligent show her round. I mad e my mind up to walk out as soon as I got Elin to the right room. I went past reception and siad Im going home cos I feel sick. The receptionist said why. I said it was becos Id eaten some crappy food in the canteen, thatll shut her up. THe recptionist siad to Elin who are you. she said I'm feeling sick too cos Ive been poisoned. I looked at Elin and couldnt believe it.
I said elin can come home with me I live close and I'll take her home later. THe recptionist tried to stop us and I got mad and threatened to throw up all over her desk.
elin was laughing.
Elin said what are we going to do. I said I'm going home and when I get to the off licence I'll buy some food some vodka and a packet of ciggies cos the guy there knows me. But I said I think you should stay in school. I'm taeching you bad ways and leading you astray. she smiled and looked at me and said ''maybe I want to be led astray''
My spine went into meltdown as she put her arm round my waist
i said we''l sneak round the back of my farm so as not to be seen, we'll go up to the hayloft and get drunk hahahah! WE walked off down the school drive hand in hand and kids were looking out of the window at us
gobsmacked.
Then I woke up! Grrrrrr. It was a low flying plane or something. I was confused and looking for Elin. The deam was so vivid i wanted to go back to sleep and get back into the dream if I could but my heart was racing. I got up had a ciggy. tried again. no sleep. I got up and found some dregs of vodka, I thought maybe if I can create where we were at it'll help. But still couldnt sleep. So I got up and thought I'll make a hot choclate and write it down as much as I remember maybe that will help. So thtas what Ive donwe. and I still feel tired but not sleepy.
I know its a combination of things. I wasn't even watching FA but I did watch Girl Interrupted and drank too much so now I'm dehydrated. I wrote an Elin poem on here in fanfic cos I didnt feel sleepy. I ate cheese and cripsbread really late cos I was hungry. it's also still very warm here even though its late september. I alsways get wierd dreams if I overheat. so Ive thrown the window open to air the room. I'll go back to bed in a bit. I cant usually get back into a dream once ive woke up but I'll try